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aku tau rasanya melepas tanggung jawab. enak ga enak bakalan kita terima. kata tomy mundur dari jabatan itu nggak enak banget. emang demikian adanya. tapi opsi mundur dari jabatan masih lebih baik daripada kabur, ya nggak? mundur secara baik-baik, sesuai prosedur gitu, haha. tapi intinya apa yang sedang ku alami adalah masa nggak enak. pengen beranjak, pengen meninggalkan, pengen menyendiri. masalahnya cuman satu, tapi vital banget. matilah ya kalo sampe ga bisa diperbaiki. untuk kali ini, aku mau mundur dari segalanya. penat dan nggak pengen diganggu. oke sorry dari tadi cuman muter-muter mulu. gini: alkisah ada suatu acara bla bla bla, aku jadi bla bla bla. jabatanku membawahi semuanya, sama kayak ketua, tapi porsinya spesifik untuk sesuatu tertentu. tugasnya adalah membuat suatu bla bla bla yang butuh kerjasama satu tim, semacam gotong royong gitu. permasalahnnya adalah saat aku minta childfruits ku dateng jam 9, ga ada yang dateng satupun. di tempat bla bla bla aku nunggu hampir 2 jam dan tetep ga ada yang dateng. bahkan ketuanya pun ga dateng. congratulation alfian! thats good for you! pas ada penggede yang dateng, aku bohong dengan mengatakan bahwa kita kumpul jam 10 kok, biar kita ga dinilai rendah banget gitu. dan akhirnya acara tersebut batal dan bakal diganti keesokan harinya. satu yang ga ku inginkan adalah menceritakan deritaku ini ke temen-temen, karena ga semestinya mereka tahu apa masalahku. ini tanggung jawab yang ku ambil, ya ini konsekuensi yang harus ku terima. yang kedua adalah aku kesel banget sama orang-orang yang selama ini emang ga pernah meluangkan waktu sekalipun untuk mbantuin temennya kayak gini. makasih hlo yang udah ninggalin gue! mkasih banyak! besok adalah hari penentuan ku mengambil kesimpulan dan sikap. dari ditu aku mau mundur atau maju akan ku tentukan besok. liat aja kawan! hahaha

Through The Rain ~ Mariah Carey

When you get caught in the rain
With no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain
without anyone
When you keep crying out to be
saved
But nobody comes and you feel so
far away
That you just can't find your way
home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is
I can make it through the rain, I
can stand up once again on my
own
And I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold
tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make
it through the rain
And if you keep falling down, don't
you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so
keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to
prevail
What you say is
I can make it through the rain, I
can stand up once again on my
own
And I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold
tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make
it through the rain
And when the rain blows, as
shadows grow close
Don't be afraid, there's nothing you
can't face
And should they tell you, you'll
never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say
I can make it through the rain, I
can stand up once again on my
own
And I know that I'm strong enough
to mend
And every time I feel afraid I hold
tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I make
it through the rain
I can make it through the rain
As I live once again
And I live one more day
I can make it through the rain
Yes you can
You gonna make it through the rain

u.s pop 2008

Eh eh eh eh eh eh
Uhhhhhhhh
Eh eh eh
Bum bum dum bum bum be-dum
bum
Eh eh eh eh eh eh
Bum bum dum bum bum be-dum
bum
Take it down slow (Take it down
slow)
Baby you could have whatever you
like
'Cause you asked for it
Tonight (tonight)
With you, with you, with you, with
you, with you. (Bum bum dum bum
bum be-dum bum)
Eh eh eh eh
Touch my body
She-she-she lick me like a lollipop
But I don't care what they say
Guess what? I liked it (eh eh eh eh)
Come closer, 'cause you need one
Tonight (tonight)
Next thing you know
She-she-she lick me like a lollipop
They don't know the truth
So what? I'm still rockstar
(eh eh eh eh)
I don't worry 'cause, everything's
gonna be alright
For somebody that'll take you out
and do you right
Show you what it feels like
Tell me what you sippin' on
I'm gonna keep it coming all night
long
Sexy can I keep it on the low
I said it's too late to apologize.
With you, with you, with you, with
you, with you.
The whole club was lookin' at her
(Bum bum dum bum bum be-dum
bum)
She-she-she lick me like a lollipop
But I don't care what they say
(Bum bum dum bum bum be-dum
bum)
Do you expect me to live alone
with just me
You got me feelin' like a child now
And breathing gets hards (so hard
for me to breathe)
Even I know that
Touch my body
She-she-she lick me like a lollipop
But I don't care what they say
Guess what? I liked it (eh eh eh eh)
Come closer, 'cause you need one
Tonight (tonight)
Next thing you know
She-she-she lick me like a lollipop
They don't know the truth
So what? I'm a rockstar (eh eh eh
eh)
But all I know is everything's gonna
be alright.
Baby then that's cool
That I got you (got you)
Tonight (tonight)
You're the only thing that's on my
mind
Wanna give it to you all night
You ain't never ever gotta go in
your wallet
Long as I got rubber band banks in
my pocket
5, 6 rides with rims and a pocket
kit (Bum bum dum bum bum be-
dum bum)
You ain't gotta downgrade
You can get what I get
Got my world to you
That lovey dovey (lovey dovey)
That kiss kiss (kiss kiss)
In her mind she fantasize
'bout getting with me
They hatin' on me (hatin' on me)
They wanna diss diss (diss diss)
Because she's mine and so fine
Thick as can be
And oh, I'm into you
And girl no one else would do
'cause with every kiss and every
hug
You make me fall in love (it's too
late)
And now I know I can't be the only
one.
I bet it's hearts all over the world
tonight.
With the love of their life. - (please
don't stop the, please don't stop
the...)
Who feel what I feel when I'm. -
(please don't stop the, please don't
stop the...)
With you, with you, with you, with
you, with you. - (please don't stop
the, please don't stop the, please
don't stop the.)
I said it's too late to apologize. -
(please don't stop the, please don't
stop the)
With you, with you, with you, with
you, with you. - (please don't stop
the, please don't stop the, please
don't stop the.)
Guess what? I liked it. - (please
don't stop the, please don't stop
the)
She-she-she lick me like a lollipop.
- (please don't stop the, please
don't stop the)
But I don't care what they say. -
(please don't stop the, please don't
stop the)
But it's over now. - (please don't
stop the, please don't stop the)
It's too late to apologize
Don't tell me you're sorry cause
you're not (it's too late)
I said it's too late to apolgize (too
late)
Eh eh eh

Create

we don't understand what people think. we never hear what they say. we never respect about what they need. we just follow our instinct to pretend about. why I had to use we ? becouse I am different. I can hear their soft voice. I can feel their spirit to live together, and stuck in love with each other. I am not we.

u.s. pop 2009

I know you want pop, you want
dance, you want rock and roll
You wanted boom boom?
This year’s remix got symphonic
soul
I got pop, I got dance, I got rockin’
electronic club beats
I got hip-hop music with the future
flow
So don’t worry, even if the sky is
falling down, down, down
Gonna be ok when it knocks you
down, down, down
So baby don’t worry, it’s alright, a-
alright when it knocks you down
When you go down, when you go
down down
No need to worry, just pick back
up when you’re tumbling down,
down, down (down, down)
It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every step I’m taking
Every rule I had you breaking
Every move I’m making
The risk that I’m taking
The chances I’m taking
With a big smile on my face
And it never seems out of place
Blame it on the pop, blame it on
the dance, blame it on the rock
and roll
Blame it on the rumba, so in sync
with the symphonic soul
I like that pop, I like that bass, I
like them rockin’ electronic club
beats
Blame it on the hip-hop music with
the future flow
Baby, don’t worry, it’s alright, a-
alright when it knocks you down
Somewhere far along this road
Stressed out, I wanna let it go, I
feel down, down, down (baby are
you down, down, down, down,
down)
And oh, (hey) I’ve been traveling on
this road too long (too long)
Just trying to find my way back
home (back home)
The old me is dead and gone, dead
and gone
I gotta feeling
Woo hoo
I found God
Blame it on the pop, blame it on
the dance, blame it on the rock
and roll
Blame it on the feeling of the
music deep insi-i-i-ide your soul
We got the pop, we got the dance,
we got the rockin’ electronic club
beats
We got the hip-hop music with the
future flow
People in the place
Put your, put your hands in the air
Now put your hands up, oh, oh,
oh, oh, oh
Forever united here
Blame it on the po-po-po-po-poker
face po-po-poker face
So live your life (Hey!)
Let’s live it up (Ho!)
If you wanna get down (Hey!)
Down (Ho!) down (Hey!)
Muh muh muh muh (Ho!)
I wanna get down, (Hey!) down,
down (Ho!)
So baby, don’t worry, it’s alright,
a-alright when it knocks you down
When you go down, when you go
down down
No need to worry, just pick back
up when you’re tumbling down,
down, down (down, down)
Blame it on the pop, blame it on
the dance, blame it on the boom
boom boom
Gotta get that rumba, blame it on
the 808 with the boom boom boom
Gotta get that pop, gotta get that
dance, gotta get that boom boom
pow
I gotta get, I gotta get this year’s
remix with the future sound
I gotta feeling
But I never really had a doubt
That tonight’s gonna be a good
night
That tonight’s gonna be a good
night
And I say the same thing every
single time
You know that I could use
somebody (woo hoo)
Open up your plans and damn
you're free (Hey!)
Look into your heart and you’ll find
love, love, love
Stop stop stop feeling down, down,
down
Can’t you see love, love love?
Isn’t this easy feeling love, love
love?
Down down down
It’s like I’ve been awakened
Can’t you see every step I’m taking?
Don’t be afraid
The risk that I’m taking
Can’t you see?
I’ve had a little too much feeling
down, down, down
Can’t you see every move I’m
making?
Every rule I had you breaking
Isn’t this easy feeling love, love,
love?
We’ll make it out of this mess
Change your mind
Baby just say yes
Da da da da da da da da da da...

forum 'menyenangkan'

tiap malem, ga tiap malem juga sih, kami mengadakan rapat yang menurut saya kurang efektif. semua udah pada capek, abis kuliah seharian, pada belom makan, kedinginan, huh. tapi sang ketua tetep ngebet karena pengen tahu bagaimana progres per divisi, demi kelancaran hari-H. oke. untuk alasan kayak gitu kami terima dengan lapang dada. tiap kali rapat ga pernah fullteam. dan tiap kali rapat yang diomongin cuman muter muter di lingkaran setan. pernah, cuman nentuin lokasi acara aja sampe satu setengah jam. buset dah. mendingan gua balik dari tadi dongs. gua agak nyesel waktu udah dikasih tahu oleh budiman bahwa sebaiknya aku ga ikut forum apapun yang dilaksanakan di malam hari, karena pas weekend bakal menguras tenaga. dan benar saja. pas kamis malem gua lupa kalo ada rapat, gua udah berniat mau balik tuh. dan si upleh bilang,"kamu ga ikut forum?" "oh iya ntar malem ada forum, mampus gua." karena gua kelupaan, gua ga bikin alasan untuk membolos forum itu. dan bener juga, gua kurang tidur saat weekend adalah acara yg sangat melelahkan. sabtu: amazing race keliling bandung. minggu: kayak jika aku menjadi gitu, menggelandang disuruh menggandakan uang dari 2000 jadi 25000. cuapek banget dan sampe sekarang capeknya belom ilang. semalem rapat lagi dengan kondisi tidak fullteam. karena mulainya molor, maka pulangnya pun juga demikian. yang dibicarakan juga itu-itu terus. konyolnya dari divisi perijinan belom kelar, padahal sekarang udah H-3. kami punya seorang senior yang jago bernegosiasi dengan bagian perijinan di kampus. semoga beliau bisa menjadi malaikat penyelamat kami. kami pulang sekitar jam 22.11 dari kampus. gua 'seneng banget' dengan agenda rapat semalem. rasa seneng gua udah ga bisa dibayangin lagi. di saat lagi jalan turun tangga cc, eh ada temenku, yang rabun senja, jalan kaki ndirian. gue bilang,"lo pulang dianter siapa?" "nggak, gue jalan sendiri. gue naik angkot." buset dah ntr kalo kenape-nape gimana coba. itu dah lewat jam 10 malem, dan membiarkan seorang temanmu yang rabun senja jalan sendirian di malam hari. gua tanya lagi,"lo bawa senter?" "kagak." "trus?" "gue naik angkot aja." buset dah. malah pengen naik angkot ndirian. terus kite smua balik ke tempat forum dan meminta seseorang untuk mengantarnya pulang. GA MAU coba? alasannya dia udah mau nganterin seorang cewek, dia males bolak-balik. gua sih kepikiran buat nganterin dia naik angkot, trus gua naik angkot yg lain, balik. tapi ternyata, si cewek yg mau di anterin ini malah bilang,"udah aku naik angkot aja bareng dia. kite kan se-daerah. ntar kite turun baren." nah? loh? sekarang berarti si cewek yang njagain dia. oke. karena 'si sopir' cuek. aku pun ikutan cuek. tapi gua masih merasa kasihan gitu chuy... oke. kisah berlanjut kembali. kite serombongan berisi penghuni kos plesiran+gua. sampai di ujung parkiran sipil, gue nunggu angkot. ditemenin 2 orang sih, sementara 2 yang lain pulang duluan, soalnya yang satu cewek. nunggu lamak, akhirnya angkot pun dateng. gua udah takut tuh. ya kali lo merasa aman tentram di dalem angkot malem kayak gitu? tapi ternyata angkotnya cukup ramai. okelah. gua duduk di samping sopir. dan selamat sampai tujuan. gua langsung tepar, setepar-teparnya orang. awalnya pengen coba lembur blajar sih, tapi lelah ini belum bisa terobati. jadi gua memutuskan untuk tidur. Gnight! paginye, saat gua berniat membuka blog yang telah usang, berdebu, dan mungkin dah ada sarang laba-labanya, gua dapet 5 sms unread. pertama dari ronny," Fi, km datang statdas? Aku ttip absen yaa.. Bdanku masih sakit smua gara2 kmrn blm smpet istirahat fi :( " gua bales,"aku baru bangun tidur ron. aku jugak kecapekan nih." sms selanjutnya datang dari garry," Km dateng statdas? Aku titip absen dong fian .. Lg ga enk bdan nih.. makasih." dan ku bales dengan jawaban yang sama kayak ronny tadi. yaampun. sadar ga sih. forum forum yang dirasa kurang efektif untuk dilakukan ada baiknya di postpone dulu kawan. di saat ada anggota angkatan membutuhkan bantuan, mana uluran tanganmu? mana hatimu? mungkin kata-kata ini kuramg pantas ku ucapkan, karena aku juga 'nggak bergerak' saat melihat kondisi seperti itu. bagi kawan-kawan yang memiliki fasilitas berlebih, harap digunakan untuk menolong sesama. okelah. cukup sekian dan terimakasih